The busiest week

You know you are F busy when you don’t even have enough sleep or whether you have eaten or not. 'cause when the busy-ness consume you, you will not feel hungry. true story.  I was so busy last week, I think I lost 2 kg. Which is good actually. I really need to lost weight, I’m getting fat. Mind you, not fat fat all over the body but nasty belly fat. The kind of fat that I hate.

I was involved in Sports day event as time keeper. In which I got sunburned because me no wearing some sunblock. Stupid me. The sports day was held in neighbouring school for two days and I was standing directly under the sun for two days. And in the afternoon, I had dancing practice for this PSKPP event until night. I was so busy from morning until night like a celebrity would. *tepis bahu* I even have exam paper to make, where got time man.

That dancing thingy was a one-time event I will never join again. Not that I hate it, but I am really not good in dancing that I hate myself more when I monitor myself dancing in a video. To think that we only have 4 days to memorize all the steps and being a first timer dancer, I feel so drained and emotionally exhausted. But luckily we won (and even though I made many mistakes, I dance pretty well, clap clap) and were to represent PEDALAMAN to state level BUT Dayana and me had to withdraw because of our personal problem. Although I feel a tad sad but thank God I can sleep in the afternoon again! Dancing is really not my thing. Maybe if we have like months to practice, then I will surely maybe think about joining again. One of the good thing that came out from joining this event was I met many new friends. Finally, I have new friends from other school. Ok, that sounds pathetic. 

Teacher Taya

~xoxo~

I am a Teacher

After six month of waiting and being a full time couch potato, I finally got hired! It was the best day of my life, the feeling when you got the surat tawaran, and then the penempatan, then the school you got posted to. It’s like the six month I got tired of waiting just gone, pooff, just like that.

So chronologically, I got the news about my pending interview result on 13^th May (after being kept as simpanan for 5 months long that is), and then I got the penempatan news on 6^th June and then the taklimat news on 10^th June and then I went for taklimat at JPN Sabah on 13^th June. So that’s one month of waiting. During the taklimat, we (210 TESL and 38 PAI) were given our surat penempatan sekolah by Puan Hajah Maimunah Binti Haji Suhaibul who is the Pengarah Pendidikan Sabah one by one. Yep one by one and that’s a name I need to remember.

We were also given taklimat about things that we need to know as a teacher, and honestly I don’t remember what was being said. All we want to know is which school we will be posted to and other things don’t matter. All my other close friends got Beluran and I got Nabawan! Which is one and a half hour from my hometown so that’s a plus. My parents always talk about me being posted to Nabawan so I guess their wish came true. I can come home during the weekend if want to. No more flight and two hours of journey to be back.

To all my fellow IPG mates who have not been posted yet, don’t worry, your time will come. We’ve waited this long, why not wait a little bit longer. To my IPG juniors, I don’t know what your future will be like. Most probably, the same fate as us. Don’t worry, you’ll get through it. If you got posted late, buatlah facebook group like us and in there, saling console and support each other like we did. United we stand! It’s all about unity guys.

Lastly, shout out to my friends who got posted to beluran, especially you santi HAHA, baik baik saja. Rajin2 isi egtukar. Yang naik boat, berhati-hati. And to all teachers who got pedalaman deep in the jungle, naik boat, hey at least you guys got more allowance.

And to my first school, I hope I will be okay there. Sk Kebu Baru Nabawan, here I come! 

Teacher Lya

~xoxo

Catching Up

Hi folks. It’s been a while since I wrote (well technically typed) in this blog of mine. I’ve been busy. Now I am not, since its school holiday. So let’s catch up writing before the year ends.

So basically, I’ve been through a lot. With the sudden change in the IPG system where we (the semester 8 trainees) were to finish our studies in just about two month while struggling with our Action Research (AR) and final examination (we should finish everything before September ends!), the emotional turbulence knowing that we will be finally finishing our 5 years and a half studies in a very short time and say goodbye to classmates, like come on! We should be finishing in November not September! I’ve got a lot on my plate, at the time I felt so regretful choosing this field of study. Everyday it’s like “fuck this shit, I’m going home” saga. Nevertheless, I persevered. Completing my Action Research report was a huge relief.  I did well in my final exam, considering that we have little time to study (and my laziness), so I guess everything went well. I even went to Langkawi for holidays before going back to Sabah for good. I’ll write about that later on.

After I went back to my place, I went for my internship at nearby school for two months. It was awesome! I missed Sabah Tanah Air Ku! Although it’s a little bit awkward teaching in your mother tongue. You know, I am so used to speak in “semenanjung style”, I struggled for at least two days before finally adapting to the school culture (it was embarrassing really). That’s what happened when you spent 5 years and a half in west Malaysia. *sigh*

I also went for my interview on 23th November. I was so stressed out because I only have 5 days to prepare everything. It was not even holiday still. I got so pissed off when I saw post like “preparing for interview, nervous” like for fuck sake, your interview is on December and mine is in few days! But I managed, I think I did well in my interview, there’s slightly glitch but overall I think I did good.

And now I am at home, doing nothing. Waiting for interview result. I hope I got early posting. One can hope huh. I am thinking of searching for part time job. I am broke and I will not have my monthly allowance anymore. So sad. I guess this is the reality now. 

lots of time

taya~xoxo

Realization

Everyone's perfect in God's eyes. I'm glad that I was born and raised perfectly by my parents. I'm just glad that I was chosen by God to have a simple yet perfect life compare to others who was born with special need. Those people who unfortunate to be born with special need. Those who don’t even know why were they born like that. Those who didn't ask to be born like that. Sometimes I ask God, why he created such person. Why doesn't He create all equally? Then I realize that He created all that for us to understand and realize how fortunate our life is compare to them. People like us are the one who should give a hand to those people. They need help, they need care, they need attention and most importantly they need love.
Not all people realize this but try to be in their shoes. How would you feel when the others treat you the same way they treated "those people". But of course, not all people are cruel. Some have self-conscious definitely. But the question is, how many?

*PBS day one. Round and checked all the facilities in the school. even entered Pre-school class and Special need (Pendidikan Khas) class. I'm so glad that the children liked me. They are all so adorable. I even shake hand with 2 of the students from special need class. I think I was born to become a teacher. I know that now. Thank you God.

PBS day 2. Ganbatte!