GUILTY. SINS. REMORSE

I am thinking about my mom this very moment. I miss her so damn much! and of course my family. missing them was a torture to me and I can't stop thinking of them! I was browsing through pictures in my laptop when I found this picture that I downloaded it,well,I don't know when..it was a piece of writing, a story actually, that really touch anyone's heart,(if you do have a heart),well it touches mine..I had read it once, and I cried. still, when I read it on second time, I cannot stop my tears from going out. hell ya! it was really touching man..

the title is "I HATE MY MOTHER"

what the hell man..

I'm a cry baby,remember? I cry way to easily, that I can still cry for the second time after reading this story.

it was a story about a child and a mother, where the child hated her mother so much and even yelled to her and told her to just go die..what the f**k! you go to hell piece of crap! I was so into the story that I curse and curse and curse at the son until I felt better. I think that all children who betrayed their parents should go straight to hell.don't you think so?? am I just cruel enough,or should I add some, well maybe all the children who betrayed  their father and mother should have been tortured like hell before hang them to death and burn them to ashes and throw their ashes to the sea..huh! what a relieve..but surely, i will not do that..it is just way to cruel to punish someone isn't it..hahaha..

well, I know I'm not perfect. me,of course,once yelled at mother before,but then I felt guilty, I felt that I had commit a serious sin and I regretted it. I remember that I yelled at my mother and how she reacts about it. I saw her face full of sadness because of her stupid daughter yelled at her!! stupid taya!!!!! I hated that part of me. I know that my mother suffered a lot for me.T.T thank you mom..

she called me yesterday, we were talking about home and my brother at seremban and of course myself,and the words that catch my heart a lot was, "dekat suda kamu balik,mama pun rindu suda kamu ni, hati2 kamu sana,selalu ingat Tuhan,mama selalu sembahyang untuk kamu"

I also miss you mom..so much!!!! don't worry mom, I will always listen to your advices..thank you for everything mom..

words for my mom

*i know that i always trouble you,i know that at some point i really mad at you and refuse to talk to you,i know that i've been a bad daughter for you,but i realise one thing,you love me so much that you forgive all my mistakes without hesitation. you are a great mother that i wouldn't exchange you for anything, you are too valuable and nothing can change that. thank you mother for giving birth to me and take care of me. i promise you that i'll be a good daughter to you and take care of you like what you did to me..thank you mother..and i love you more and more*

p/s: I LOVE YOU TOO PAPA..NO WORRIES.. =P YOU ARE MY HERO FOREVER AND EVER!!!:)