Serangga. Lipas. Hashtag.

This is a schedule post so, yeah.

Serangga, insect. I hate all of it. Even ant. Super duper hate it.
I saw this meme in facebook before, it's about a cockroach, Lipas. There's this little girl with her brother in an elevator when suddenly the little girl saw a Lipas on the floor. The brother said " No worries, I'll protect you lil sis". But suddenly, the Lipas fly towards the brother and he quickly hides behind his lil sis. What I'm trying to say here is that, LIPAS IS NOT SCARY WHEN ITS NOT MOVING, BUT WHEN IT FLIES, YOU BETTER RUN!!!

This is what I kind of do last night

yeah, I put three pictures because one picture is too mainstream.

I encountered this situation last night, or should I say last morning cause it happened at 3.20 am. I was focusing on my laptop when suddenly something flew towards my wall and seriously, it scares the hell out of me. I knew immediately that it was that damn Lipas. I wanted to kill it but it ran away to my roomate's closet so I thought it was okay. As long as the Lipas don't bother me, I wont bother the Lipas too. Fair enough. After I calmed down from that traumatic event, the Lipas flew again towards my bag, then towards my study table, and I knew from that moment I must kill it before anything happen to me. (okay, exaggeration at its best) And so after putting my shield and my sword, which is my blanket and a book, I kill it without hesitation. And for a moment, I feel like I'm in a war and whoever loses will be killed. Of course, I won. Though it such an embarrassing victory.

I was scared to look at it directly, so I took pictures of it and even recorded it to see if its moving or not. 

*slap slap myself, coward*

I'm still in trauma. Every time I feel itchy or something moving on my body, I'll slap my own body. Damn the Lipas, dah mati masih menyusahkan!!!!!

#oh #and #yeah, #don't #you #feel #annoyed #when #people #write #like #this #on #facebook #when #it #doesn't #even #work #on #facebook? I think this comes from Instagram and of course only works on Instagram. Oh, correct me if I'm wrong. I'm nothing but a learner. I don't have instagram and yeah, I don't have smart phone so yes, people who like to use this excessive hashtag is retarded! #Annoying #nak #mampus. oh well, mind my words. Seriously, I don't have smartphone, and for those people out there who keep saying, "zaman sekarang, siapa la yang tiada smartphone?" eh hello, I don't have okay. Don't judge. I bukan kaya macam kamurang. period. 

lots of love

#taya #2013 #hashtag #xoxo

Daring Tears

My grandpa died last night.

The family cried in grief and shock,

Holding each other in one group hug

While I sat by our space heater

And stared into the darkness.

I was crying inside too,

But no one knew

Because my face rarely shows

The struggles of my heart.

I remember one day when my emotions got through,

When my loneliness reached a point of desperation

And tears came pouring out.

Mom was there to hold me

Until my sobbing stilled.

Comfort is a privilege

But without communication

What chance is there of comfort?

Later last night Mom got out the board

And let me share my pain

Hugged me in spite of my stiff response,

Reached into my heart.

Never never think you understand

How we autistic people feel.

Underneath the giggles, we may be

Dying inside.

Thank God there is someone in my life

Who listens.

-Craig Romkema-

When I first read this poem in my Literature in English book and that was 5 years ago, I've always felt something in my heart, and I still do. It is the mixture of sad, anger, devastated, pity and scared. Well I guess this poem really touched my heart. 

Hentam sajalah.

Pernah terfikir tidak, jika pada suatu hari anda terlalu penat lalu tidur seketika untuk menghilangkan rasa penat, dan setelah itu anda bangun dan sedar bahawa 100 tahun sudah berlalu. Apa yang akan anda lakukan? Jikalau saya, boleh buat apa lagi. Teruskan hidup, kejar masa yang telah anda kehilangan dan hidup dengan gembira. Bukan apa, bukan senang dapat hidup 100 tahun tau. Syukur lah.

lotsoflove
~tayaldo~xoxo